There are no words to express what this little man means to me. He has been my little sidekick for the last 4+ years. We’ve very sparingly been apart in that time and when we are my heart aches. I’m sure you’ve all heard the quote:

“To have a child, is to decide FOREVER to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”

-Author Unknown

Well I find it to be incredibly true. I know I get judged for not wanting to leave my kid ever but I’m ok with that. If at the end of the day the worst thing I did as a parent is to spend too much time with my kids then I will feel really lucky. I have no doubt that won’t be the worst thing I do though. =)

Being on the brink of bringing another member to our family, one that will not only take a lot of my attention but will occupy equal amounts of my heart, has me all sorts of emotional this week. I’m so incredibly excited for what the future has in store for us. To watch them grow and love each other as siblings. To see her special relationship with her Daddy. To share my heart with another beautiful soul that I can’t live without.  I’m also feeling a little sentimental at saying goodbye to these moments as just the three of us. I am definitely ready to say goodbye to them and welcome this little one who will no doubt steal all of our hearts. I am just feeling this immense need to soak up every moment with this little man before things change.

I had told my honey that I really wanted pictures of Zachary and I snuggling in bed to remember these moments. We have spent so much time co-sleeping and snuggling these last 4 years and it may need to end once she arrives depending on how it all goes so I really wanted to document that in some way. We normally use a tripod and remote to take our family pictures but that was going to be impossible for these. I told him what I wanted and handed over the camera. I must say I was blown away when I uploaded them. He captured exactly what I wanted and even more. I will absolutely cherish these images forever. I have no doubt he will never let me forget his photo skills.

He’s seriously been so incredibly amazing throughout this whole pregnancy. He’s been patient with me not being able to play like I used to. He comforts me and tells me to lie down and rest when the contractions get more intense. He is constantly telling us both how much he loves us and always wants to touch the belly and talk to her. The list seriously goes on. We are so lucky to have this boy in our lives. She’s going to have the best big brother ever.